After the #RoadTrip to Hobart, Oklahoma to see Charlie yesterday and getting up at 2am. I am drained and tired. David even went to bed at 5:20 so you know he is tired as well. I can’t even think this evening to decide what I need to do for work.
Since the day has stacked itself in the kind of way that leaves no space between one thing and the next, and then suddenly everything hits at once instead of politely waiting its turn. I’ve decided to throw in the towel for this evening and crawl into bed to watch tv after checking on Charlie.
Even though there’s the work in the back office that was supposed to be straightforward but turned into friction instead of flow. The kind of thing where even the smallest detail starts feeling like it’s pushing back. And then life doesn’t stay quiet in the background while that’s happening—it calls, it updates, it delivers news that lands heavy and immediately rearranges everything in your head before you’ve even had time to absorb it.
That combination is exhausting on its own. With Charlie and his family being scattered across different places, different worries are hitting harder than usual, different conversations are happening at once, and there’s no clean way for my mind to hold all of it without strain.
So, it makes sense that everything feels like it’s too much right now. Not because I can’t handle life, but because there’s simply too much life happening in the same stretch of hours. On top of everything else there is the question of Texas and Hobart and where to live and who goes and who stays.
In moments like this, pushing harder usually doesn’t actually create progress. It just adds more weight on top of an already overloaded system. My mind doesn’t write cleanly when it’s flooded. It doesn’t edit well. It doesn’t design or format or problem-solve with any ease. It just tries to survive the pressure of it all.
I wanted to let you know if there’s a bed calling your name, like mine is tonight it’s not a failure to answer it for a while. Rest in situations like this isn’t a reward we earn after finishing everything. It’s more like stepping out of a storm long enough to stop getting soaked through.
Remember nothing is going anywhere in the next hour that can’t wait for us to come back with a steadier head. Even if my blog is waiting, even if emails are waiting, even if the project is sitting there unfinished, it will still be there after I’ve t had a break that actually gives my brain a chance to unclench. The same goes for you.
As I keep telling myself you don’t have to solve the whole day right now and we don’t even have to decide what the rest of the day looks like. We need just enough space to stop the spinning for a bit is enough for this moment. Isn’t it? Remember ehen you come back to work. it will feel different than it does right now. Not because everything changes, but because you won’t be carrying it all at full weight at once anymore.
Thank you,
Glenda, Charlie and David Cates
